5. I Regret My Abortion

I REGRET MY ABORTION
(Mourning the Loss of What Could Have Been)

“I’m 28 years old, and I had my abortion about 6 years ago. I think about it all the time. I always thought that I’d move past it eventually, but it’s only gotten worse. Every time a TV show or program discusses abortions, miscarriages, or sad pregnancy stories, I cry uncontrollably. The decision for an abortion was emotionally painful, yet I didn’t feel like I had a choice at the time. I was with a guy who I knew I wasn’t going to end up with. I wasn’t in love with him. I was with him because I was lonely, and vice versa. More importantly, I was still in college and I wasn’t ready to have a child. So when we found out about my pregnancy, we knew what we had to do. I cried so hard on the day when the abortion was scheduled that the clinic could not go through with the procedure until a week after the first appointment. If I had realized how much I would regret my decision, I wouldn’t have gone through with it. I think about whether it was a boy or girl, what he or she would have looked like, and whether or not he or she would have had my eyes. These questions tear me apart over and over again. Even though the baby doesn’t exist anymore, its brief existence in my womb changed my life forever. I wish I could go back in time and change my own mind. I would hold my newborn child in my arms and never let go.”
-Jenny

 

My parents said I couldn’t bring a bi-racial child into the world. So I aborted the only child I ever conceived. Now we don’t have any children.
-Dorothy

I don’t think a woman is ever prepared for the effect abortion has on a family. I couldn’t even look at my living children after I chose to abort their sibling.
-Shoshana

My culture and faith speak against abortion. But I chose it anyway. How do I ever reconcile that choice with God? With myself? With my family?
-Maria

I wish someone had told me...the only two regrets of my life would be the loss of my children to abortion.
-Stacy

I don’t think a woman is ever prepared for the effect abortion has on a family. I couldn’t even look at my living children after I chose to abort their sibling.
-Lauren

My culture and faith speak against abortion. But I chose it anyway. How do I ever reconcile that choice with God? With myself? With my family?
-Lindsey